Holy massive sigh.

I've been venting non-stop the entire day so yes..

:) Everything's going to be ok :)

If I'm still feeling this bad after 2 days, it can't be a good thing. I haven't been eating either, and you all know I am a bottomless pit. I have no appetite AT ALL.

I don't know if it's cold feet or ... yea well, I've just been having terrible disrupted sleep over this crap. I really don't know why I feel so vulnerable. I'm having a lot of mixed feelings atm.

Plus I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings either. I don't want to disappoint anyone. But I'm not happy, so how am I going to make this decision..? I'm not the type of person who loses sleep over people's words. I stand my ground and I believe what I want to believe. This time I'm wondering if I've been blinded by something else and just what if I'm making the wrong decision?

I cannot do this for another week; I think I will end up in front of my psychiatrist otherwise T.T

What makes it worse is that there are bigger things out there to be worrying about. Someone's dad just passed away all of a sudden and you know, it just seems unfair that I'm preoccupied with this...someone just lost a dad, someone's lost a husband, someone doesn't have a brother anymore. And here I am moping over something completely petty compared to that.

Massive apple in my throat atm T.T

I hate not knowing. As much as I love being swept off my feet. I just don't know what I'm doing.

A lot of people are happy for me, I just don't want to burst their bubble. But I know this is a decision I have to make by myself.

:(

You win some you lose some...

It's very interesting to see how different friends react to news. I'm surprised how affected I am by their opinions. Jono's stabbed me pretty damn hard =="

Spent some quality time with Sookers today at Chaddy :D I probably spent the whole day worrying over nothing. Retail therapy defo works for me lol..

Anyhoo I'm feeling a lot better :)

I think I am such an idiot sometimes LOL ARGH. Today I accidentally made Carl and Azzy's day RA!! I thought they were "informed" of the news but guess not, so now they actually DO know the news cos I told them....by accident. Both said the exact same thing: "I'm all fuzzy inside now", "YOU JUST MADE MY DAY" and "BEST DAY OF THESE 2 WEEKS!!!!" LOL sorry *cough*..

Ra, can't wait for this weekend :)

I'm a little shocked....very shocked actually...yet happy, excited..and scared?

Confused :(

2 days ago we had a conversation that completely contradicted everything that I believe in now.

But anyway, time for some awesome sleep :)

I fugging wanna stab myself.

My brain's literally ASLEEP from the studying so...yes...

*Rage* uni wireless HAD to die today =="

Anyway exam is in 12 hrs so I better get some sleep and cram some more in the morning.

Can't wait for Friday!!! :)

I WILL UPDATE MORE TMR WHEN I'M ALIVE.

LOL I didn't realise how rusty I got with my math that even Carl had to go through the basics of vectors with me just then.

Carl: Dude, teaching you math is like teaching a vegetable

He didn't mean it, but he did :P If you know what I mean LOL.......

I am so screwed for my exam SIGH, MASSIVE SIGH.